Post Partum Meltdown #1

My mental breakdown started a little like this....

I wanted to go to the mall to

1. get a refill of my MAC Studio Fix

 2. An Easter dress for church

and

3. a pair of jeans that fit (that are not maternity jeans). 

Jason, Kellen and I

set out on our way to the Tacoma Mall and hit every store in there.  It was all either nothing I liked

or all the dresses were strapless and/or sleeveless, or just nothing was fitting.  But it wasn't until I hit

the last store, grabbed a few pairs of jeans (in sizes I'm not gonna say) and still, you got it, they didn't fit.

I undressed so quickly, put my hands over my face and sobbed by myself, quietly so

the gals in the next rooms couldn't hear me, then grabbed my things and went out

to meet Jason, who quickly wrapped his arms around me, with Kellen in the Baby Bjorn on his chest and just let me cry it out in the middle of store with everyone watching.

(pretty comical if you picture it) 

I never want to say I'm fat, 'cause that's not the case or how I feel.  It's the feeling after pregnancy of panic when you have an event or two coming up and you have to find something that fits and/or makes you feel good. 

I have neither.

So I'm in the awkward stage of the

"3 months post-partum and I need to do something with my look and quick" stage!!  So what!  We'll get thru this and I have a loving husband that makes me feel gorgeous and helps me realize that I can and will.

I did on the other hand get a new bra from Victoria's Secret which I love,

with a GC given to me for one of my showers, so the shopping

trip wasn't that bad after all.

I also went thru Erin's blog today and found this picture. 

This will be my motivation!

And yes, this exact picture.....

My family by my side,

on the 4th of July,

 in that exact same top,

and in the exact pair of jeans,

 with an ice cold Stella in my hand!!

Cheers my friends!!